To the Love of My Life...

To the Love of My Life...
By Sarah Hafermann
Written December 2006

Everyone in the world has one purpose in life:
To find that one person to become their husband or wife.
To find the one person who they are meant to be with for all of time.
The person that makes them happiest, the most complete, the most sublime.

While in this search of our Soul mate,
we look at the relationship and all it has at stake.
Sometimes we fight for what isn't really there
hoping that each relationship will become the one that will really care.

Sometimes it ends suddenly without seeing the possibility.
These hurt us most, especially when it revolves around accountability.
To never know what could have bloomed,
and instead having to face a life without them, a relationship doomed.

Then there are those that last only for a little while.
That could have gone far if only the other person had been willing to go that extra mile.
Sometimes these end for the good of all,
as its hard to trust if they are never there when you fall.

But sometimes, when it matters most,
someone amazing comes along, set up by heavenly ghosts.
This person takes your breath away,
and all you can think is that you want them to stay.

Even though I may not have found you yet
I know there no need for me to fret.
I'll meet you when the time is right
and our love will be one that is quite a sight.

To the love of my life, wherever you are,
no matter how close or miles far,
When we meet, if we have not yet,
Our love will be one that compares to a sunset.

Forever blooming in beauty and splendor
Lasting through time in all of its wonder.
Traveling the world with no end abound.
continuing like a circle, forever round.

And as life passes us by, us standing hand in hand
We'll look out at the beauty of our bountiful land.
Knowing our seeds will grow for generations to come.
and living, knowing that we have truly been loved by someone.

Sorrowful Rhyme

Sorrowful Rhyme
By Sarah Hafermann
Written October 2006

Why does this feeling tear me up inside?
When I'm around you I just can't hide.
You look into my eyes and see to my soul.
Yet if that so, then why didn't you see my heart turn to coal?
After betrayal its hard to trust again,
we need to go back to where we first began.
Life won't let it all work out,
and it doesn't help that we are both stubborn krouts.
Maybe with time it will heal our wounds,
and we can go back to enjoying our afternoons.
As of now I'll tell you this:
yours was the sweetest of the lips to kiss.
I will miss them dearly till the end of time,
which brings me to the end of this sorrowful rhyme.

Complications

Complications
By Sarah Hafermann
Written October 2006

Why is it that I still feel this way?
Why does your face run through my head throughout the day?
Why can't I think about anyone new
and instead all of my thoughts turn back to you.

Why do I wish to linger in your arms?
Why do I melt to all of your charms?
Why can't I get over these feelings?
The mere thought of you just keeps me reeling.

I wish I could just forget about you and move on.
To find someone new, who isn't a con.
I know I deserve someone better than you.
But when I think of us there's not much I can do.

I must keep my eyes focused on the prize
and never stray back to your comforting side.
Its tempting its true, but its a must.
I must stay away until you can gain back my trust.

Your Eyes

Your Eyes
By Sarah Hafermann
Written October 2006

I see so much within your eyes
They tell me the ways of your soul with no surprise
The deep amber shines in your happiest times
and the black darkness is there in sadness in all its signs

Your eyes are what make me keep coming back to you
but this time we've got to be through
there's been too much pain, too much agony to sort.
You never were fully there, so its time to abort.

This Love was doomed from the start
and most of the blame falls upon your part.
The tradgedy continues like a never ending drama
it should have ended with a period, not a comma.

We put to rest this loving past
and only hope that this friendship lasts
because to never see you eyes again
would be like losing my only friend.

Eternal Pain

Eternal Pain
By Sarah Hafermann
Written October 2006

I sit here crying in agony over your unintentional  blows.
You keep hurting me, yet you never know.
I love you so much, yet you make me hurt so bad.
Lately It seems like there is less happy times than sad
I’m sick of crying these ever falling tears
If we stay together, will they continue for years?

You say you aren’t ready to give up on me,
Yet why is it you who must decree?
You are the one who has made all the mistakes.
Yet don’t you think it is my choice to take?
Continuously its excuse after excuse
Me feeling every time even more used.

We continue on with these unbearable games
Wondering what’s wrong, when there is only one to blame.
If you love me, stop using words, show me!
Something to truly show me that you love thee.
Much atrocities have been committed while this game has been in play
And this eternal pain has to stop with no delay.

Crazy in Love

Crazy in Love
By Sarah Hafermann
Written August 2006

I watch you slumber from across the bed
While a million thoughts fly through my head
We haven’t been together very long,
Yet when I am with you I fell truly strong.
You make me feel so light and free
And no matter what loves me for me.

Your arms are comfort in a cold world
When I am in them, I am safe from the constant whirl.
Your smile and personality radiates all around.
And when you kiss me I know I’ve found the best that can be found.
I love you more than I have anyone in my past
Hoping this relationship is one to last.

Together we make quite a pair
One that is exceptionally rare.
We both have our quirks and oddities,
but complement each other’s personalities
So when the world come to push and shove.
We can just tell it we are two crazy people in love.

Mortal Chains I am Bound

Mortal Chains I am Bound
By Sarah Hafermann
Written July 2006

Here I sit, alone without thee
I left him for you, set free for you to see.
I stand here screaming for your attention,
Begging for you to again glance my way, to give me your affection.
But I get nothing but silence, no response at all.
You relinquish my pain, never return my calls.

You said when I was with him that you regretted not fighting for me
But now I sit alone without either of you, waiting for your decree.
Why did you tell me that when I was so content?
It ruined what I did have with him and caused me to feel poignant.
I could only think of your advocating words of sadness.
And its left me now dealing with all of this internal madness.

He has moved on to the one person I couldn’t compete with
She was always begging for him to join her side, like a sith.
Now he is with her, and as I try to be gleeful in their joy,
While I sit here waiting for not a man, but a silly little boy.
One who says things when he should just keep it internal.
You were always able  keep everything else in that infernal.

Now I sit alone, sad as one is allowed.
Fallen to my knees, bent and bowed.
I must learn to be patient as I am at your mercy,
And try to deal with this continuous controversy.
I will keep my mortal chains tight tonight
For my heart won’t give up on this internal fight.