To Those I've Hurt in the Past

To Those I've Hurt in the Past
By Sarah Hafermann
Written October 2010

I know I am not perfect, though I've tried so hard to be,
I've hurt so many without trying, when just being me.
I've said things that I shouldn't when I was hurt and afraid,
cutting those closest to me, with the sharpest end of the blade.

A bad habit of action before thought
has caused me to be one who has forgot
to put others thoughts and emotions first
causing hurt feelings that cannot be reversed.

To those I've hurt, you know who you are,
no matter how long it takes, close or far,
I will do whatever it takes to make my actions ring true
to be once again considered a friend by you.

Hole vs Whole

Hole vs Whole
By Sarah Hafermann
Written May 2010

Lost in the moment, lost in the tide,
lost everything when I ran away to hide.
So afraid to love, so afraid to feel,
so afraid of something that might be real.

Opened my eyes, opened my heart,
told myself I needed a new start.
I took risks, some that many question,
some that I took from others suggestion.

Started to laugh, started to smile,
started to want to go that extra mile.
Change started to occur inside and out,
changes that some didn't expect to come about.

Now I'm a whole person once again,
not afraid to make new a friend.

Slumbering Dream

Slumbering Dream
By Sarah Hafermann
Written May 2010

Oh, to be able to whisper "I love you" in the moonlight,
to feel your arms hold me close,
I cling to you tight, so tight.
your love sends me into an over dose.

It carries me and caresses me into ecstasy,
drugging me with your sweet kisses,
my own personal fantasy,
granting me every one of my wishes.

Yet I wake in the morning to find you not there,
not in my arms, not kissing my lips,
you have disappeared into thin air,
while I grasp at my dream with my finger tips.

Oh! To be in love again, to feel the warm breezes of summer.
Until I find you in life, I will find you while I slumber.

Dancing

Dancing
By Sarah Hafermann
Written September 2009

Twirling, whirling, moving to the beat.
looking into your eyes, holding onto your hand.
A dream comes to reality, feeling the passion and heat.
The smile upon your face makes my heart take a stand.

A hope that is feared to be hoped.
A heart that is afraid to love once again.
The pain I've endured, but some how have coped,
now I pray it is my heart you slain.

Slay my soul, as the rhythm takes us away.
The past only bring us closer, as we stand close now.
My heart is begging you to stay,
and as the dance comes to an end, I take a bow;

I bow out of my fears and take a leap of faith,
into your arms, your heart, and mind,
begging, God and the holy wraith,
for you to be one I've been searching to find.

Past

Past
By Sarah Hafermann
Written February 2008

Its hard to believe its been two years
hiding from each other, hiding from our fears
Both of us have been scared of what could be
Afraid of what was there, afraid of what everyone could see.

I sit here re-evaluating our past
wondering, if we had tried, would we have last?
I see images in my head of what could have been
You have meant so much to me, much more than just a friend

Lately ideas have been popping up in my mind
of something, that if we searched, we could find
Is it ever too late to find true love?
Is it ever to late to have something sent down from above?

I dream of confronting you about our past
I have to do it soon and I have to do it fast
Our love could still have a future,
but its one we both must nurture.

We could have something truly amazing
but it would take truth without fazing
Our past could become our future story
and allow us to live, finally, in a world of everlasting glory.

Forever Friend

Forever Friend
By Sarah Hafermann
Written January2008

You are no longer here it seems
Yet you are still forever haunting my dreams
I learned of your death just this morning
And now I sit here grieving, mourning.

We may not have ended the way I would have preferred
But in my heart you have stayed, though not till now did it occur
That even though you are gone, 
the love that once was will still carry on

I know you loved me, even though it did not always show 
When you did, I always thought it, like the rose petals, were faux. 
But you tried your best in your corny ways
And loved me truly throughout our days

And even though you are gone forever more
I know that it was me who you truly adored
I think of you as my forever friend
And this friendship will never end.

An Image

An Image
By Sarah Hafermann
Written November 2007

There is an image in my heart
one that has been there since the very start
There is an image within my soul
that only you could ever know
there is an image upon the air
one that only you can share
there is an image within my eye
something we'll never see unless we try
there is an image within my mind
of a love we could possibly find
upon the images that show
is my heart that is waiting to know